I like normal, I actually crave it. I like routine and everyday things...I love coming home from work, getting a little nap in, helping my husband with chores, cooking dinner, doing laundry, and just sitting and knitting. I also love to sit outside and watch my chickens, donkeys and dogs play. I am a very boring person, and I love it. But my life is taking a huge change...things are happening very quickly, some of it is very very good, and another is extremely sad. So our lives are up in the air and I struggle to get the simple things done around the house. My house right now is a wreck and I hate that, that is not normal, we have chickens to process this weekend and I have a short fast trip down to my moms.
My husband father is just this side of Heaven. I am calling these his glory days....days spent waiting for God to take him home to heaven and be cradled in his arms. I know once he is on that side of heaven he will never wish to return to this side. He will see the perfection God has created us for and start living his real life; he is done with this temporary sinful existence. Glory Days!
The other news is happy and startling....34 years ago I gave up a baby girl for adoption to a christian couple who could not have children. I wanted to protect her from the stigma and looks that would have been cast her way so many years ago. Back then the church in general could not separate bad behavior from the consequences....a small innocent baby who did not deserve those looks. I wanted her raised by a two parent family who themselves were believers. I prayed always that she was safe, happy and growing up well. I prayed that she would find her way back to me, but it would be her choice, not my invasion. Through Adoption Angles I was found. They asked if I wanted to peruse this and I said yes. So right then and right there they did a three way call and I was talking to her.
This all a bit surreal and a bit weird. I have no context for this outside of a happy heart and love that has been stored up for 34 years. I am not her mom, she has one, but I am her mother in that I gave birth, made the biggest sacrifice outside of giving my own life for her. I have had a hole in my heart for her and now I have the opportunity to fill it.
I am being careful and have cautioned her, that if we have unattainable expectation we will fail. I don't want to fail. So we are starting as friends, with a life long connection and working from there. We have to build memories, and companionship, we have to get to know one another! And for her, bless her heart, there are a lot of us! We will work at easing into this relationship..
With all of that said, I still have my boring life here in Kansas and cooking family meals, or at least pretending to right now. I have been using my Emeals menu planner and their new Clean Eating menu....I love it, no processed food what so ever. I have made several of the recipes and love the ease and how good they really are. Tonight I am making 5 Star Chinese Spice Pork with rice and fresh snow-peas. I will make this at my in-laws tonight so that we can enjoy a meal together. The recipe is so simple; it only takes about 20-30 minutes to put together. The rice takes the longest. Check out Emeals and for $15.00 underthings three months it is a huge bargain!
Here is my take on Emeals Bolognese Meat Sauce
2 T. olive oil
1 cup of diced onion
1/2 c diced carrots
1/2 c diced celery
3 cloves of garlic smashed and minced
2 lbs of lean ground beef or a mix of sweet Italian pork and beef
1 c beef broth (organic, please)
1 28 oz can of whole roma tomatoes with basil
1 28 oz can of pureed tomatoes
3 bay leaves
2 heaping T. of good Italian seasoning blend (I use Spice Island)
2 lbs of pasta, your choice
In a large cast iron skillet (American made and safe) add 2 T. of olive oil, heat set at medium. Add the veggies, onions, carrots, celery and cook for about 5 minutes; add the garlic and continue to cook for about 2 minutes.
Add the ground beef and or pork breaking it up with the back of a spoon, or my favorite tool Pampered Chef's Mix & Chop. Cook the meat till no longer pink and all the liquid has cooked off. You can drain it, but I like to continue cooking till the liquid has evaporated...I think the meat taste more meaty...
Add everything through the tomatoes...both cans. Break the roma tomatoes up; they will cook down as well. Add the bay leaves and let this simmer for at least 30 minutes on very low, and hour would even be better. About 5 minutes before serving stir in the Italian seasoning...let it simmer for another 5-10 minutes. Prepare your pasta according to package...make sure your water is heavily salted, like sea water.
Enjoy and go take a look at Emeals